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Growing Old Alone (1 Hour 3 Minutes)

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Thanks to the GFN_General(http://www.visitnowhere.com/), Toppie Smellie(https://smellcast.wordpress.com/) and That Blue Jeans Guy(http://thatbluejeansguy.blogspot.com/).

Tuesday I got word my uncle Mike Ulmen died in a home in Seattle for disabled adults. He died alone without any family there as we all live in Minnesota and he made it clear he never wanted to return. I think over all I spent maybe 1 months worth of time with him in my life.

As it continues, I didn’t cry. I honestly rarely knew him. It did make me think of someone who’s death I did cry for, Tari Renfold. I never knew the person behind the Second Life persona, but I knew Tari for a long time. In fact I was one of the very few lucky enough to see her the night before she died. I found her flower in the Linden Park and spent a long time fighting emotions last night.

I have come to the realization that I am on the same road as my uncle, I will die alone. I have felt the same flight desire he gave into. Wanting to go away from everyone and just hide from the world.



Opening: Ze Frank – Are You Human Ted Talk (https://www.ted.com/talks/ze_frank_are_you_human?language=en)


Maybe April from Jeremiah Johnson (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95ND_fwX2fM)

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February 2, 2014 (FtBCon2 and other stuff)

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Chaos is late so Rendal starts talking about the FtBConscience2 panels he has seen; Myths and Facts About trans People (the one he first saw which got him interested), Between A Rock And…:Non-Binary Gender in Atheism, Trans* Representation in Video Games, Cthulhu’s Minion: Evil Gods for Atheists & Trans Men and Trans Masculinity. For more FtBCon videos click the year for the playlist; 2013 & 2014. Rendal then starts talking about his views on religion, God and being a deity. Also talking about his two personifications of Death from the one created by Neil Gaimen and one from the comic Jack. Then Chaos makes his way and drags the chat over to the Super bowl, which Rendal is no fan of.

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Pete Seeger, Maximilian Schell & Phillip Seymore Hoffman all died this week. Brief mention of J.K. Rowlings talking abour Ron and Hermione. The movies Big Ass Spider!Street Fighter, the Spiderman movies, also Batman Forever. Cards Against Humanity, including the possibility of hosting a Cards Against Humanity game on Pride 48 Sunday’s 6:30PM-7:30PM EST.


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Break Music

Peter, Paul & Mary – If I had a Hammer
Macklemore & Ryan Lewis, Mary Lambert & Madonna – Same Love from the 2014 Grammy’s
Johhny T – Guide to Attending the Superbowl