Category Archives: Chaotic Thoughts

I was there (30 Minutes)

I’ve been thinking about this since the opening (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvqglMRNT_A) and closing (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FO_6B2W6-VY) ceremonies from Fur Squared 2017 were put online, seeing and browsing the Anthrocon 2017 Schedule (https://anthrocon2017.sched.com/) just cinched it. How I seem to push myself into things I have no real way of fitting into.

Pride 48 Vegas 2013 video by Adam Burns – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7YOiP9BChI0

Pride 48 Vegas 2015 video by Vera Charles – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2U4IHfIeDKU

Fur Squared 2017 Who’s Line is it Anyway. which sadly I weaseled into – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xh6dQn0I2wg

Music

Annella – Bass Me Baby (https://annella.bandcamp.com/album/bass-me-baby-single)

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Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

Day 4 (15 Minutes)

Day 4 without coffee and most sugar. Surprisingly doing OK. Talking briefly about the car, toothaches and Mankato Moondogs.

Music

Icky – Ring-a-ding

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

Meh (18 Minutes)

Mags with a bland week, talking about the car issue mainly.

Anthrocon 2016 by big Blue Fox (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EYf6Db6vx7Y)

Music

Divenire by Ludovico Einaudi You Tube: Royal Albert Hall performance (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIprTEhr9lE), Amazon MP3 (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B001GKYCGG/)

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Facebook Links

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Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

Just…why? (24 Minutes)

So no good news this week really. Car repairs are over 1600,  Due to this, and the state of the other cars in Mankato it is all but certain I won’t be attending my 25th Class reunion. Top it all off with still not hearing from social security and yeah.

Music

Natalie Merchant – Carnaval YouTube (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQ_Wqtnlv4U) Amazon MP3 (https://www.amazon.com/Carnival/dp/B002UXI3JA)

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

What a week (29 Minutes)

Mags running down the week and a little bit of gender/sex chat.

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Facebook Links

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Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

Update and getting a #Fursuit (19 Minutes)

So life has gotten busy, so Mags has a update on things along with thinking about getting a fursuit?

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

Google Voice: (209) 730-6637

Facebook Links

https://www.facebook.com/matthew.ulmen

https://www.facebook.com/Pride48Mags

https://www.facebook.com/chaoticravings

https://www.facebook.com/FiniteExposure/

Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

I have to get this out of my system (39 Minutes)

I found an article from the Daily Beast (http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2017/04/13/neo-nazis-are-tearing-apart-the-furry-world.html) about the Rocky Mountain fur Con debacle. While it did help fill in some blanks that I didn’t know about, They wrote it to be sensational it sounds like with this sentence:

Then someone on Twitter told Deo she would enjoy watching Deo get shot at the convention.

No…they didn’t. 2 Gryphon did a video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYS55QQM6GE) that was posted a couple days later from this article in which he shoes the twitter posts and there was no direct threat to Deo.

This is what has kept me out of the active fandom for a large part of the 20 years I’ve been in it. I don’t do well with drama. Coming from a small town where drama thrives finding when drama blows up I try to stay out of it.

I would love to see the #fur4peace idea spread in the community during a divisive time in the country, I am just unsure if peace can override the love of drama people seem to have.

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Facebook Links

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Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

Back in the saddle (35 Minutes)

Mags is back early with a show talking about the trip he took with his folks, Wen-Con news from Chaos and Nicole from Greetings from Nowhere and a small bit about allergies 😛

Nicole’s review on Wen-Con – http://www.wenatcheeworld.com/blogs/the-works/2017/apr/11/the-works-wen-con-the-afterglow/

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Facebook Links

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https://www.facebook.com/Pride48Mags

https://www.facebook.com/chaoticravings

https://www.facebook.com/FiniteExposure/

Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarin

Stress and 2 Gryphon/Anthrocon (43 Minutes)

Mags talks about the stress between Social Security and his folks, and what lead him to decide to travel with them. Also talking about the 2 Gryphon and Anthrocon debacle since everyone has  😛 Next show should be April 15 due to travel.

Links

Chaos Infintium’s video about 2 Gryphon – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dtfm4tEeKso

2 Gryphon’s Dear Anthrocon – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6-taH_xUW4

Hello Internet Episode 80 – http://www.hellointernet.fm/podcast/80

Music

Adriano Celentano – Prisencolinensinainciusol  (You Tube Video link from Hello Internet – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-VsmF9m_Nt8) (Amazon MP3 – https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0063MYIX4/ref=ap_ws_tlw_trk1)

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

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Facebook Links

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https://www.facebook.com/Pride48Mags

https://www.facebook.com/chaoticravings

https://www.facebook.com/FiniteExposure/

Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina

Lagging in Life (47 Minutes)

Goodbye Nicole…getting that out of the way early.

I was reading an erotic fan fiction story last night and found, in the oddest place, exactly how I felt about myself. Below is the relevant section (Story link: My sister’s Ex-Girlfriend (arrow erotic Fan fic) – http://tv.adult-fanfiction.org/story.php?no=600099134&chapter=1)

“No way, this is way too good.” Sara grinned in delight, and then after a pause in which she just stared at her sister the blonde added, “You know, Oli has always had many faults, but being bad in bed wasn’t ever one of them. So, if you couldn’t cum with him… chances are that you’re gay.”

“Please, say it a little louder.” Laurel grumbled.

Sara raised an eyebrow, “It’s nothing to be ashamed of, you know?”

“I know, it’s just…” Laurel said before her shoulder slumped, “I feel so stupid.”

Sara frowned, “Why?”

There was a pause and then Laurel mumbled, “If I am… you know… gay, why did it take me so long to figure it out? Why did I throw myself at Oliver and Tommy, if they weren’t really what I wanted? Why do I feel this way? Why didn’t I feel this way sooner? God, none of this makes any sense!”

“Or, it makes perfect sense.” Sara said after a brief pause and then when her sister gave her a look she added, “You were always obsessed with being the good girl. Good girls aren’t gay. They go to college, get a respectable job, marry Prince Charming and have kids. So anything which didn’t fit with your perfect idea of yourself you repressed. Until I died. Then you completely lost it.”

“I wouldn’t say I completely lost it.” Laurel grumbled, “That makes me sound crazy.”

“You kind of were.” Sara insisted, then when Laurel gave her another look she quickly added, “Think about what we do. You honestly think we aren’t all a little crazy?”

There was another pause and then Laurel reluctantly agreed, “I guess.”

“I didn’t say it was a bad thing.” Sara smiled, “If anything, I think it helps the likes of us. It certainly helped you come out of your shell. You finally stopped trying to be the perfect good girl and embraced who you really are.”

Music: k,d, lang – If I Were You (You Tube – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNjSltrst4A) (Amazon MP3 – https://www.amazon.com/dp/B001QUT97I/ref=dm_ws_tlw_trk1)

Contact us at chaoticravings@gmail.com or visit us at http://chaoticravings.com. Chaotic Thoughts can be found at http://www.spreaker.com/show/chaotic-thoughts.

Google Voice: (209) 730-6637

Facebook Links

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https://www.facebook.com/Pride48Mags

https://www.facebook.com/chaoticravings

https://www.facebook.com/FiniteExposure/

Twitch Links

http://www.twitch.tv/chaosinfintium

Chaos’ you tube channel – https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5xd4yu0SSQR98cf9X0wh5A

http://www.twitch.tv/althenan

Mags on Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/ravingrendal/

Mags MNFurs Profile – https://www.mnfurs.org/members/speyeder/

Mags on Telegram – https://telegram.me/SpeyederFarina